Now she’s alone again, wondering if the sun could lighten up the dark corners as she stands comfortably there. Wondering if the wind can blow away the agony that lies beneath the memories that stab her from time to time. Wondering what and where the wilderness of life will take her this time.

She is as weak as the vulnerable plants that surround her but she comes into the light as a strong being. She tries much not to be tamed even the weakness is obvious in her body language.

She will heal on her own time, on her own light.

Receive Me and Help Me Unlove

How can one heal when one still loves?
I love but it’s no longer enough,
Not enough to make you and me happy.
In fact, love makes it harder.
I miss you, and it crawls in the back of my mind,
I hate it every time I miss you, I don’t want to be alone but I can’t take the distance anymore.
I don’t want to love from afar anymore.

I don’t want to miss you cause it’s killing me each day,
I want to forget and wish someday when I see your face, my heart won’t sting anymore.
I want to push you, have your memories piled at the deepest part of my mind,
Where I can’t easily remember you
But it is so difficult since my heart surely remembers you, the details about you.
It remembers even if I don’t think of you,
It aches alone even if I don’t see you.
God, take me out of this misery, let me heal, cause it breaks me as a human,
Take me out from this hellish state,
Let me unlove, let me not to care.
Let me let go of this human being that I can’t even perceive.
I cannot handle it anymore, and crying doesn’t even help.
How can loving someone have a cruel impact on me?
It’s so cruel that it shuts down my world.
I don’t want to love anymore, oh please God!
Begging for you to take away my love.
If I can’t be happy then I’d rather feel nothing at all,
I’d rather have that than feel this pain that keeps crawling back.

Read this if you are still in love with the person that you are trying to get over now, and if that person has already found someone new.

A Desperate call

By: Brae
It's a little sad to sing a love song in my head,
When there’s a person in my mind who’s stranded.
To sing alone softly while having a reverie.
When all I think that matters is you and me
A little depressing to walk on streets under a pale blue sky
With a heart carrying a heavy rain, waiting to burst and cry.
To turn my head up and hope for the best,
When I know my world turned out to be so soulless.
It bothers me a lot not getting used to the changes.
To live without you and to live with such bitterness.
For crying out loud! I still love you somehow,
Even if things are different right now.
Even if I did give the best effort to give you everything,
And showed you the only best I could bring,
Maybe it was never and will never be enough for you.
No matter how hard I try and no matter what I do.
Life’s so dull not having you around,
‘Cause in your arms, I know I’m safe and sound
But since you’re gone and left me without a trace.
I just hope, a revival will take place.
It’s martyrdom to feel this way,
To still love you even if I feel astray
And still long for you despite the pain.
Even if this circumstance drives me insane.
I can only write down what I feel
And this distressful feeling is hard to reveal
And I know you wouldn’t even care to listen
If I try to speak and hold you then.
I’m still not ready to live my days without you,
I’m still so into you even if we’re through.
You vanished like a faded silver star,
Wish I could pull you back, but you’ve gone too far.
Everything got worse as it went along
Now it hurts more and adoring you feels so wrong.
I’m living solo while you’re breathing on your own,
You found a replacement while I’m still so alone.
I can’t measure how much it hurts to live with this misery,
Feels like it’s all my fault and that I should be sorry
That I should be the one to take all the blame
Being left out for shallow reasons, it’s a total shame.
Tiring it is to hold on to someone who has other options.
To cry all the tears that can’t even reach my satisfaction.
To wake up with weary eyes and a heavy heart
Can’t believe in just a snap we broke apart.
I’ve taken my time and learned to take you for granted,
Just slowly taking my life back without a tear getting wasted
Maybe I’m almost there of getting over you
And being happy on my own is what I should pursue.
I’m halfway to ending this desperate call
For the things that hurt, I don’t want to recall.
Unspoken it is but I’ve written it all
So goodbye for good and I swear, no more tears to fall.

Pardon my absence for the couple of weeks. I hope I still have you looking forward for any updates.

For all the poem lovers who happen to be undergoing a heartbreak right now, or that if you know someone who is, I’ve got this poem for you with 13 stanzas “A Desperate Call”. This goes out to people who are currently in a break-up, also fits for those who are going through divorces. Overall, anyone who’s going through separations from their beloved.

I hope you don’t feel alone, or at least you can say you’re not the only one who’s feeling this heartbreak. Anyone can say that everyone goes through break-ups and you will get over soon but when you’re in the moment, you can’t deny the fact that you feel helpless. WE KNOW it will be over soon but let your heart bleed out, respect its time to heal. Accept that you’re in pain cause that will be the kindest thing you can do to your heart.

You could be having the feeling that it’s the end of the world, it’s okay! But pick yourself up. It’s just now that you feel that way and it’s just the emotions taking a toll on you.

Give it a time, give yourself a time.

Never forget that there’s always an opportunity lining up every time a door closes. So it’s not the end of the world, it’s only the end of one of the chapters in your life. Cliché but true. Believe that you will soon recover like every wound when you get a cut.

You ever had that feeling on your youthful days where you always felt confused about the signals that a certain person was giving you? Mixed signals that you couldn’t seem to figure out or it could be, it was already obvious but you just didn’t want to accept it. When you just allowed yourself to be fooled over and over just so you didn’t wanna lose sight of him/her.

It’s tragic that there’s always a chance to be fooled, although it won’t happen if you don’t let it, it’s just that the love for the person weakens your resistance making you give in.

It is easy to say “leave if you’re not treated right”, it’s the wisest thing to do, but finding the broken line of a cycle for you to get out is always a challenge. You might have already noticed the broken line to exit but it all ends up with you, whether to decide to leave even if it’s obviously there or decide to stay even if it’s already tearing you into pieces.

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Move on

{1} The ever first poem that I’m releasing, ‘Move on’, is about getting over unrequited love. I have composed this years ago but this is still one of my favorites because I still find it so true, I still believe in what I wrote before, I mean it’s still applicable today even if it is more complex now.

As we grow up, it does not get any easier and even if we have already been through moving on from person to person, we still don’t get the hang of it. The process of moving on still requires full determination, but still, we never get used to it. Nevertheless, the concept of this first poem still for me is undeniable. I hope you’ll see my point as you go ahead and read it.

Move on


Move on, two words with six letters
Which means getting a new start and finding what’s better.
Two words, so short to remember,
Yet it takes long to forget the heart’s history that got shattered.
Not all, but some expect to find another person to heal what’s wounded,
Some play around, craving for revenge,
While others hide their misery and choose to pretend.
And there are those of us who make ourselves busy and wait for time to mend.
We may go in different ways,
Still, no matter what we do, same feeling we all have— pain,
And even we may go in different approaches,
Still, we have the same situation,
Having hard times moving on.
Who says moving on is easy anyway?
Well, maybe it is for those who play.
It is anticipated patiently,
Releasing each moment timely.
Everybody wants the feeling of love’s sweetness,
And everybody hates the feeling of love’s bitterness.
We’ve been there, so it is safe to tell
That when we start to love, for sure, we’ll both feel heaven and hell.
Moving on is more frustrating when we’re still in love.
But that’s just the best yet toughest thing we could do when we see all’s falling apart.
We can’t cling to someone who’s not ours anymore.
Whether we want it or not, we have to let go when both feelings match no longer.
We can never release our yesterdays
If we will not try to catch what we have today,
Because the present is given for us to live,
Not for going back to the days they decided to leave.
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